Thursday, March 10, 2011

Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

From Thirty Days of Truth

No chance that I am going to write a 'letter'. That's an entry level psychotherapy exercise, and Baby I am WAY beyond entry level.

What I thought about doing was just making a bulleted list. I think that will work just fine.

  • I LOVE that I'm a woman. Even through the feminist movement of the 60's and 70's and the fight for equality and dealing with the sexist assholes who treated women like we were less than cattle (isn't that where that old saying came from? Why buy the whole cow when you can get the milk for free - completely demeaning), I was always glad I was a woman and not a man. Sorry, Sigmund dear, no penis envy here.
  • I love that, in spite of my cruel and oppressive upbringing, I still believe in deep, genuine and authentic love.
  • I love that I am a loving and committed wife, mom and grandma. My husband, my sons, my daughters-in-law and my grandkids mean the world to me and my life wouldn't be the same without each and every one of them.
  • I love that I am intelligent and use that ability wisely (most of the time). I read a ton of newspapers online - big, small, local, national, international, liberal, conservative - because I think it's important to consider everyone's perspective before I form an opinion.
  • I love that I am perceptive and intuitive. It allows me to see and hear beyond the spoken word even if I don't particularly like what I see.
  • I love that I'm emotionally strong and resilient because it empowers me to get up and move forward no matter what life presents.
  • I love that I have a sense of humor that enables me to laugh, even if it's at my expense. I love being caught off guard with something so funny that I laugh until I almost cry.
  • I love that I still feel like I can change and grow; that I never feel (at least for very long) that I am a hopeless cause, even if it takes me 5 years to accomplish the simple task of making exercise a part of my daily routine. It doesn't make me hopeless. I just makes me a slow learner.
  • I love that I have the ability and courage to tell the truth.
This is the last day of The 30 Days of Truth. It took me longer than 30 days, but I finished it. What have I learned from this exercise? Nothing new really. I have always known that the only limits I've ever had are the ones I place on myself. I have always known that I've had all the opportunities I need to be who I want to be and do whatever fulfills my heart's desire and my life purpose. Opportunities have always been and always will be there for the taking...the enjoyment...the indulgence...the transformation of myself. Many times I have been my own worse enemy; other times my only cheerleader. It always comes down to accepting personal responsibility for who and where I am TODAY. It's not my parents' fault. It's not Tom's fault, or my kids' or my sisters' or my boss' or ex-husband or ex-boyfriend or anyone else's... or even life. I am, right now, TODAY, responsible for continuing to create my life and will do so until my life is over.

Now if you will excuse me, I will get out of my pajamas, put on some sweats and hit the treadmill.

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